Wednesday, August 05, 2015

My Inspiration..


Whatever your cross, whatever your pain, 
There will always be sunshine after the rain
Perhaps you may stumble, perhaps even fall,
But God's always ready to answer your call .

He knows every heartache, sees every tear, 
A word from His lips can calm every fear.

Your sorrows may linger throughout the night,
But suddenly vanish at dawn's early light.

The Saviour is waiting somewhere above,
To give you His grace and send you His love.

Whatever your cross, whatever your pain,
God always sends rainbows after the rain 

 ~Author Unknown

Ek Beedi!!


It was around 8 in the morning, and the city was bustling with the chaos of school kids dressed up in their uniforms, carrying a load of school bags on their backs with colourful and cartoon sketched water bottles in their hands.

 It is always nice to see the school kids as they are the only group of humans who don’t carry stress like adults. Children always give their burden to elders, but adults can’t as they are always overburdened by the word called “responsibility”. We can also be like them if we give all our burdens to God, but, it’s easy to hear and say and difficult to follow. 

 Every day we are under stress; we are so much bothered about a lot of things from politics to financial markets, from the personal life of celebrities to crime around us, from bomb blasts to the signing of the nuclear deal and from the work pressure of job to the emotional pressure of family. With all such thoughts juggling inside my skull, I was waiting for my bus to college. I became alert as soon as I saw the yellow bus coming near to me. It stood at its usual stop and I could see some waving hands and some screams of “Hi “ “hello” “good morning” etc. and I thought “My friends, why do they always get excited whenever they see me?” well I am like that, I like boasting about myself even in my thoughts. I went inside the bus and gave a big grin to everyone and took my seat by the window.  My college being on the outskirts of the city, it took around 2 hours to reach, first, we passed through tall apartments, flashy shopping malls, offices with glass buildings, hoarding of beautiful girls and guys drinking soft drinks, eating chocolates, talking on mobile, washing clothes etc and bustling street with kids, office going crowd and row of cars. Then we took a turn to the G.T road, I could see only dust, trucks, mechanic shops and roadside dhabas with small kids in filthy clothes cleaning tables and shops with more swarthy and dingy kids waiting for some blessings from the dhaba walas in form of some remaining morsels. When one part of society is getting educated the other part is fighting hard for their basic needs. That is the real world. 

 Then we took a turn again to a more remote place, here I felt some fresh air passing through my nostrils and I saw small shops, farms and a lot of milkmen, vegetable sellers etc. getting ready to catch city buses, they might be vendors in the city and amidst all these things I saw an old lady sitting under a banyan tree. She had swathed herself in a cotton saree and on top of it a torn blanket and here and there I could see the pieces of the shawl. Although the climate was not so harsh for her to clad in so many clothes, I had the instinct that she might have spent the entire night under the banyan tree. The sudden jerk of the bus scattered my thoughts about the woman and I just gave a glance at my peers. They were dissolved in their chit-chats and I too joined with them until we reached the college.

 On the return journey from college to home, I became alert when our bus passed by that banyan tree and to my astonishment, I saw that woman again, but this time she was lying down. I called a few of my peers and told them about her. They didn't take it seriously, but I had some strange feelings for her, maybe curiosity or sympathy. Well the next day I again saw her in the same position and informed all my peers, even they wondered. Next day while coming back from the college, we stopped our bus near the banyan tree and bunch of us got down and went to the lady. She was sitting cross-legged, her eyes were sunken deep inside her socket, and her swarthy complexion was looking wrinkled and pale. Her thin and grey hairs were dry and dirty as if she hasn’t washed and oiled them for years. We asked her about her home and she replied “Mera koi nahi hai”(I don’t have anyone). I felt a pinch of sympathy and I asked her “Kuch chaiye amma?” (Mother, you want anything?) and she replied “ Ek beedi kared ke dedo betiya” (Just get me a cigarette, daughter) and I got furious when I heard the word “beedi” I told her “ yeh sab ganti cheez hai, uski apko jarrorat nahi hai, chalo aap ke liye chai late hai” (It’s a bad thing and you should not have it, I will get you tea) I said that and went with few people and got her Tea and snacks and left her as we were getting late. 

 On the return journey, we were discussing contacting some old age home, so that they can come and pick her up. A few of my peers even called some people to get some contact details about the old age home and finally they got one contact and we told them about the woman. They told us that we have to go to their organization and should take them to the spot. So, we all planned to go to the old age home in the morning and get the responsible person to bring that old woman from there. The next day early in the morning I, along with two of my friends went to the old age home and spoke to the person responsible. They insisted on a lot of formalities, so we thought on the way back we will call one of our faculties also so that all the formalities can be done without any complications. We called our bus driver and told him to pick us up from the next stop. As the bus passed by the banyan tree, I saw a few people surrounded by the tree. I got very anxious and told the conductor to stop the bus. We got down and moved the crowd to see and I saw the woman lying down, her eyes were closed and her mouth was half opened as if she has left her last breath from the mouth. One man was saying "I saw her sitting here for the past one week" and one woman said, "I was the first one to see her in the morning lying like this". I got very confused and I didn’t know how to react the only words which were echoing inside my head was “Ek beedi kared ke dedo betiya” (Just get me a cigarette, daughter) and I thought “I wish I could have fulfilled her last wish”. Sometimes life never gives a second chance to make things better! 

 

Source: This is the real incident which happened with one of my best friends Priyanka and her eyes filled when she narrated me the same.